Sunday, 23 February 2014

Did we chase the rabbit into wonderland?

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Today, sleepy and a bit hungover, I took advantage of the nice weather with my housemate and videographer/photographer extraordinaire Mina. The plan was to shoot a video (more on that later, no spoilers here!) for my youtube channel, but we ended up snapping a few outfit photos as well.  
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Skirt: Vintage via Tramp Boutique
Crop Top: H&M
Boots: *Barratts
Jacket: *Mary Jane Fashion
Ring: Antique
Necklace: Antique
Bag: Vintage
I can't tell you how much I love this skirt. I feel like a Disney Princess and I just want to spin around. Its beautiful, silky and hides tummies- yay for high waisted. It was a total steal as well at just over £20. I love vintage and the feeling that only I own this skirt.

Do you like vintage clothes?

Amy x

Monday, 17 February 2014

A constellation of tears on your lashes

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After day one of London Fashion Week, I decided to head home to my family's house in London, rather than dashing back to Brighton. I had a great weekend, thrifting, lunching and chilling with my family. On Saturday I visited Oxted, about a 30 minute drive from where I live to go shopping and have lunch- that is where I purchased the scarf I'm wearing in these photographs- I've been after a tartan scarf forever! On Saturday night my Mum and I watched 'The Wolf of Wall Street' (the second time in a week I've watched the film) and we both really enjoyed it. Margot Robbie is my new woman crush and body inspo- so stunning.
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Shirt: *New Look
Shoes: *New Look
Cardigan: Hobbs via Charity Shop
Disco Pants: Primark
Scarf: Boutique
Necklace: eBay
I wore this particular outfit to lunch on Sunday with my Grandparents before heading back to Brighton.I only ever wear these shoes when I'm predominately sitting down as they are a pain in the bum to walk in, but so, so beautiful. 

I'd also like to mention I popped up a few items for sale on Depop- my username is thecameraliesbeauty on the app! What did you guys get up to this weekend?

Amy x

Sunday, 16 February 2014

LFW A/W 14 Day One

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The madness begins, again! The kind of madness where hardly anyone puts their arms through the sleeves of the coats, heels are high, tights are off (yep, even in February) and cameras are fully charged. Of course, I can only be talking about London Fashion Week. I, among other bloggers, fashions elite and enthusiasts, took to Somerset House's cobbles to strut our stuff, catch some shows and snap some street style. Regardless of the cold, rain and wind, everyone was smiling, enthusiastic and dressed to the nines.
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Skirt: *Romwe
Coat: *Romwe
Boots: *Barratts
Bag: *New Look
Hat: New Look
Shirt: Primark
Necklace: Spanish market
So what did I wear? Well, along with many other fashion week attendees, I hoped on the 'pastel coat' bandwagon and regretted nothing. I also chose to don other pastels in the form of my silky blouse and skirt- the main statement piece of my outfit. 

I spent the day mostly with Arabella (shout out to Arabella for taking these photos for me- thanks Arabella), Charlotte, Becca and Meg and I had a fab time. Despite the rain (which there was a lot of) I really enjoyed myself- thank goodness for the media room we were able to sneak off to for rest, warmth and sustenance. Hopefully I'll be back on the cobbles in the coming days (still awaiting confirmation!) but I'll let you know on twitter. If you see me around London- come and say hi!

Amy x

Saturday, 15 February 2014

Bedroom Decor

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*dressmakers mannequin: OutThereInteriors
When Out There Interiors contacted me asking if I'd like to review an item of decor from them, I jumped at the chance to have a dressmakers mannequin. The idea of having a pretty mannequin in my bedroom makes me think of a vintage Parisian fashion week, designers flying around behind the scenes of a Chanel show,or something similarly as glamorous! The mannequin itself is gorgeous and I've decided to name it Maud. She was easy to put together and very sturdy. For now, she is just decoration, but I may also use her to photograph clothes, plan outfits and hang bags/jewellery on- who knows yet!


I thought I would also include some other little decor bits that are currently adorning my bedroom at the moment. The teeny tiny espresso cup and saucer came from a charity shop and I love the pattern on it. The teapot and cup set also came from a charity shop, although it was a gift, and I just adore the mother of pearl-esque over lay on it. I love searching through charity shops for trinkets and decor bits- especially crockery. You can find some real bargains and all the money goes to a good cause!

Are you a fan of my vintage inspired decor?

Amy x

Friday, 14 February 2014

Beyond Retro UK Event

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Skirt: Primark
Cardi: H&M
Glasses: *London Retro Via MyOptique
As a precursor to London Fashion Week, Beyond Retro-my favourite vintage store- ran previews of their new collections (re worked vintage pieces and fabrics) in London and Brighton. I was so excited for a blogger event in Brighton- right on my doorstep, no less- that I donned my glad rags and headed down as early as possible.

If you think of vintage and immediately jump to dodgy 70s catsuits or awful clothes that will make you look like the bad extra in The Breakfast Club, think again. Beyond Retro has you covered with vintage fabrics remodelled for the 'cool kids.' Pleather collars adorn floral shirts and Hawaiian anything and everything is everywhere. One of my favourite pieces was a pleather and cotton pinafore dress- simply to die for! Beyond Retro were kind enough to give me a little pleather and suede ipad case to take home and its so roomy I think I'm going to use it as a clutch bag!

Thank you to Beyond Retro for inviting me!

Amy x

Sunday, 9 February 2014

My childhood spat back out the monster that you see

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Today's photos are brought to you by my housemate, Mina! She's a keen photographer like myself and used an awesome macro lens to take these photos. I've got major lens envy to say the least! Thank you for snapping my outfit Mina. You'll have to excuse the fringe- it was blustery and wind doesn't mix well with a full fringe.
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Crop Top: Primark
Cardigan: Hobbs Via Charity Shop
Skirt: Beyond Retro
Boots: *OASAP
Necklace: *Born Pretty Store
This skirt is my new favourite item of clothing- a vintage cheerleader skirt from a high school in Texas. It still has the name tag sewed into the back! I absolutely love vintage clothing- its more unique and I feel like the item of clothing has a story behind it, that I'm adding to. Do you love vintage clothing or do you prefer to wear new clothes only?

Amy x

Saturday, 8 February 2014

The Shimmery Smokey Eye


My latest obsession- a smokey eye with a twist, as I never was one for convention or following trends. I love smokey eyes but recently I've starting adding a MAC glitter over the top to give it a bit of a twist and add colour. Its not 100% 'wearable,' although I have worn it to lectures- I just can't help myself I feel so confident with this makeup on- but its certainly pretty, eye catching and I always get a lot of compliments on it! Find out below what I use to create the look.
After applying my base which is currently Maybelline's Baby Skin Primer, Maybelline BB Cream, Maybelline Anti Age Under Eye Concealer and Bourjois Healthy Balance Powder, I like to add some colour. First up is Physician's Formula Shimmer Strips which go on the top of my cheek bones, applied with my ring finger. Next I go in with my NYC Big Bold Bronzer in Manhattan. One of my top drugstore products! Its huge! Then, for a pop of colour on the apples of my cheeks, I'm loving Trish McEvoy's Liquid Face Color.
1. Physician's Formula Shimmer Brick in 'Sunkissed'
2. NYC Big Bold Bronzer in Manhattan
3.Trish McEvoy Liquid Face Color in Shade 1
For eyes, I use my Neutral Palette from Illamasqua with the pale 'Stealth' all over my lid and the black 'Obsidian' in the crease. I line my lids using Topshop's Gel Liner and Rimmel Scandaleyes Waterproof Kohl in Black. Mascara is a Sample of an Hourglass mascara- can't say I'm, too impressed with it for the price tag but I want to use it up. I then finish the eyes with a dab of MAC's Reflects Glitter in Transparent Teal. For brows, I'm loving Sleek's Brow Kit and Illamasqua's Brow Gel to set them.
1.Illamasqua Neutral Palette
2.Hourglass Full Spectrum Mascara
3.Illamasqua Brow Gel
4.Rimmel ScandalEyes Waterproof Kohl in Black
5.Sleek Brow Kit
6.MAC Reflects Glitter in Transparent Teal
7.Topshop Gel Liner in Ink
1.Inglot AMC Lipgloss in 546
2.Topshop Lip Bullet in Covet
For lips I keep it simple and nude (with a holographic lipgloss which matches the reflects glitter) and thats the look! My new favourite, go to smokey eye!

Amy x

Friday, 7 February 2014

I’m a hot air balloon that could go to space

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This post is up super late due to flickr taking a holiday, so sorry for that! Last weekend, I went home to visit the family in London. It was really relaxing and I spent time playing cards, charity shop shopping and eating great food. In these photos, we went to a little family run tea shop in Godstone, we visit quite regularly and the owner now knows our orders, which is pretty sweet.
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Skirt: *Romwe
Crop top: Primark
Boots: *Barratts
Cardigan: H&M
Theres no winter fashion I love more than Winter florals. I'm a Summer baby, so anyway I can feel closer to the season I was born is better. I don't know if you can tell, but I'm not really a 'dark colours' kind of girl, most of the time!

Amy x

Thursday, 6 February 2014

Time To Talk

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Today's post is inspired by Megan and Lyzi who wrote about Time To Change's campaign to get millions of people talking about mental health and self harm tonight. The aim is to end the stigma against mental health and to talk more openly about self harm which is a battle I've thought on this blog for a long time (click here to read my first post about my experiences with mental health). Megan and Lyzi both bravely shared their stories and due to recent events, I feel I should share mine too.

The past few months have been especially hard for me. I was desperately wishing to get my old life back after losing the boy I loved and considered to be my best friend, I felt alone, pathetic and I couldn't see a light at the end of the tunnel. I'd been off anti-depressants, which I'd been on for several years, just before Christmas and I felt strong, in control and happy. But over the Christmas break and circumstances lead to me falling to a low place I'd never been before. I've had some dark times but this felt final. I just didn't want to be here anymore and I did things I'm not proud of. I don't feel comfortable completely opening up here, but I do need to address the fact I cut my arms. 

I've self harmed before when I was younger and I'd promised myself I'd never go back there, but a few weeks ago it felt like the pain I could cause myself was the only control I had over the pain I was feeling. I felt so sad, all the time, and at least if I was hurting myself, I knew why I was sad, I knew I could stop it or start it. At least thats how I felt. I didn't tell anyone, but my flatmates saw. They forced me to talk to my parents who were, as they always are, understanding and helpful and I was convinced that going to the doctors was the best thing I could do in this situation. I hadn't realised how "bad" it was until I was sat in the doctors office, in consolable, unable to get the words out as the how I was feeling or why. Fortunately the nurse and doctor I saw were lovely, and gave me good advice, checked my arm to make sure it wasn't infected and they didn't judge me for what I'd done.

Neither did the internet. Unfortunately, I had filmed a video for my youtube channel and posted it without realising you can see the cuts on my arms in the clips. The first time I noticed was when the comments started pouring in about it. People were supportive and worried for me and I started feeling several different things- guilt, first and fore mostly. Were younger girls going to copy my example, or see it as an ok thing to do? Embarrassment- thousands of people had seen how low I was, and members of my family found out via the video, and determination- to move past the past few horrible months. At first I toyed with the idea of taking the video down, but I didn't want to hide the issue. Instead I addressed it in a comment- saying I didn't condone self harm, and that I, myself was getting help. 

I'm now back on anti-depressants and with my family and friends keeping a close eye on me, I feel like I can get through this. I still have days of extreme lows, I don't want to leave my room, I cry at random times, over seemingly nothing, I have incredibly low self image and feel undeserving of the love I have from friends and family, but its getting better. I write about my experiences in a journal, which helps me deal with my feelings- something I highly suggest to anyone unable to talk openly about their own feelings. 

Tonight there is a Twitter chat at 9pm GMT, using the hashtag #TimetoTalkChat, where, together, we can try to defeat mental health taboos. If you need to talk, you can always email me (thisdystopia13@googlemail.com), but I urge you to speak to a member of your family or a health care specialist also. Thank you for your continued support, internet.


Amy x